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2022 Roundup (Quotes, Music, and More)

It’s that time of the year when retrospectives and resolutions are popping up all over on social media. What did 2022 bring? What will be new in 2023? And how many of my friends got married? I wrote a brief reflection on this past year in my “Christmas Card”, but in the spirit of the season, there are a few loose ends to tie up before I can let the year well and truly die.

Quotes

First, quotes! Here are some of my favorite sound bites since last time’s roundup.

Dr. Smith, my historical linguistics professor
“This is the comfort zone, and this is the wheee! Zone.”
“Let's have fun, fring frang frung.”
“If you get stuck... unclench your brain.”

Brandon, my everything else in linguistics professor
“Denmark doesn't have letters; it has dental schwa, velar schwa, palatalized schwa...”
“Ontology is talking in circles. That's what the O stands for.”
“I just called the therapist on both of you.”
“My body is a machine that accepts ice cream and spits out syntactically allowable but semantically useless strings.”
“Are you familiar with the term twinkle daddy?”

My other friend of whom these quotes may give the wrong impression
“I need to make a list of my psychopathic tendencies.”
(tired) “I would not pass a sobriety test right now.”
“How do you harass a male?”
(Do you have impostor syndrome?) “I don't think so. Maybe I should?”

And my middle-aged co-worker Sherri
“My children are bound by tradition. They are sentimental fools.”

Music

Last year, I picked an artist of the year (Parachute) and album of the year from a different artist (The Struggle, Tenth Avenue North). I’ll continue that tradition.

I think my album of the year was chosen for me when my Spotify Wrapped revealed that three out of my top five most listened songs were all from the Broadway cast recording of Once: A New Musical (based on the movie Once with Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová). I’m beyond hyped to see it performed live at the Hale in Orem this summer and may have it on repeat until then.

As for artist of the year, I really fell in love with The Airborne Toxic Event this year. I discovered them last year after reading the book they took their name from (White Noise by Don DeLillo) in my humanities class. I think there are basically two types of bands. There are bands who are there to have a good time and get their listeners to have a good time—and you can tell they’re having fun on stage (O.A.R., Marianas Trench, Parachute). Then there are bands that play from a deep place of emotion, and listening to them feels like getting to know someone and sharing intimately in their pain and love and hopes. I love listening to the first kind of band, but there’s something special about the second kind of band, and The Airborne Toxic Event is that kind. The bio for their most recent album calls it “at once uncomfortably intimate and unapologetically epic”, which is just what I love in music. My favorite song on the album, “All These Engagements”, “deals with the toll Jollett’s childhood took on his adult relationships. ‘I wanted to weave together the historical forces and the childhood trauma that resulted in an adult attempting to understand it.’” It might be the most profound confrontation with trauma that I’ve heard.

And then, new this year, here are my top 20 songs! These aren’t songs that came out this year (I’m not hip enough for that), just songs that I played and replayed that shaped the sound of my 2022. This list is limited to one song per artist, for variety’s sake.

  1. All These Engagements | The Airborne Toxic Event
  2. What in the World | O.A.R.
  3. Mended – Acoustic | Vera Blue
  4. Falling Slowly (reprise) | Once: A New Musical
  5. Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve | Taylor Swift
  6. Graveyard – Acoustic | Halsey
  7. There’s No Way – Live from Box Fresh, London, 2018 | Lauv, feat. Julia Michaels
  8. Lost in the Waves | Kooman & Dimond
  9. King | Lauren Aquilina
  10. Someone to Talk To | Tenth Avenue North
  11. Meant To Be | Ber, Charlie Oriain
  12. Teen Angst | M83
  13. Castle on the Hill | Ed Sheeran
  14. American Secrets | Parachute
  15. I Want You Anyway | John McLaughlin
  16. Meitheamh | Lúnasa
  17. Overboard | The Stolen
  18. The Rules for Lovers | Richard Walters
  19. Sailboat | Cody Fry, Ben Rector
  20. Stray Italian Greyhound | Vienna Teng

[Spotify playlist]

Yeah okay I like acoustic versions.

…And That’s a Wrap!

At risk of cliché, thanks for a wonderful year, 2022. It hasn’t been without its challenges. My friends and community have been through disappointment, divorce, health challenges, heartbreak, and death, not to mention Russia’s inhumane invasion of Ukraine, the reconquista of Afghanistan by repressive extremists, and all the suffering inflicted by evil people and regimes everywhere. Democracy in the United States seems more fragile and flawed than ever.

But despite all of that, joy and goodness have not died and will never die. We bring it with us into this world, and the best of things—whether it be a flower or a high five or a good book—keep it alive into the next year and the next and the next.

Here’s to a future we can be proud of!

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Christmas Card 2022

Dear Auna,

I’m addressing this to you because it’s hard to write a letter to nobody in particular, and because you moved to the other side of the country, which is really lame.

This year felt short. And not just because it isn’t a leap year. I think I can safely say there was never a single moment when I felt bored. Overwhelmed, sometimes; stressed, yes; but never bored! Maybe that’s weird to say, since I’ve been in school all year. I guess teaching might be a decent profession for me after all.

It’s getting dark so early. Maybe that shouldn’t be surprising since we’re so close to the equinox. It feels like I’ve been holed up in my apartment working on finals for too long, and I’m almost looking forward to all the errands that need to get done once I have a little more time: finding new fluorescent lightbulbs for the kitchen, getting an oil change, doing file backups. It’s like I’m a real adult.

Part of the journey of becoming a linguist is losing my “native speaker of English” card. I continue to commit spelling blunders like schoulders, sneak peak, schoor (score), beaing, sours (source), vallies, and all manner of other usage heresies. A sacrifice to the profession.

On the other hand, in honor of things that are improving, here’s a list of things that I couldn’t do at the start of this year that I can do now:

  • Teach English as a second language. I got a real classroom this year! Technically I was a co-teacher and only taught Tuesdays and Thursdays, but it still counts.
  • Use a dating app. Yep, I finally decided to swallow my pride and step into the twenty-first century in my pursuit of true love. It’s a learning curve, but I’ve met some cool people.
  • Do a jig. Since I joined Brandon’s Celtic band in April, I’ve been wanting to learn how to dance along in a culturally appropriate way. So I took Irish dance this semester!
  • “Publish” some writing. After years and years of writing little stories in Microsoft Word ever since I was probably 5, I finally came up with something that I thought was worth sharing publicly! You should go read it. It’s not as funny as the devils-and-corndogs one though.
  • Make a color-changing tea from random plants on people’s lawns. This one’s your fault.
  • Play mariachi music on a train. Yeah…this one I really didn’t see coming. 10/10 experience though.
  • Sing along to Japanese karaoke. One of my classmates in Japanese 301 invited the class over for a karaoke party and had a Japanese-region Wii. My Japanese reading still wasn’t good enough to keep up with all of the songs, but it was a true cultural experience, and I did my duty and belted out Nandemonaiya when the time came.

Also I blew up our oven this year. So there’s that.

Merry Christmas! I hope it feels Christmassy in Florida even if you’re not getting heaps of snow. May life go well for you and your husband, and may next year be at least as chaotic as this one.

Best wishes,

Eric

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OUT NOW: “When I Laid the Foundations”

It’s been a little while! The culprit is another writing project, and I’m excited to finally announce it.

I wrote a short story! Entitled When I Laid the Foundations, it’s a sci-fi/fantasy story with some elements of time travel and theology that runs about 6,500 words (roughly a 15-minute read).

Immortality is a curse that Lucca has been forced to bear for millennia too long. The more she wanders between the threads of time, bending past and future, the more lost she becomes. 

Worshipped by some, hated by others, she is little more than a bitter, hollow shadow of the questions that cycles of history have failed to answer. But when she agrees to meet someone from her distant past over drinks at a coffee shop, Lucca must finally confront her immortality and the Old Testament God’s enigmatic response to Job’s innocent suffering: “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?”

Read it online now, or request a physical copy.

Thoughts from the Author

Before reading any further, please read the story! The commentary below contains spoilers.

Writing the “About the Author” section for the back cover of the print books was surreal. I’m not an author! Well, I am in the sense that I wrote something, and it technically has my name on it, but “About the Author” sections are for people who write real books and talk about their potted plants and their meaningful cultural experiences and the Iowa Writers’ Workshop. But here we are. In elementary school, I always said I wanted to be an author when I grew up, and although life has taken me down a slightly different path, it still feels gratifying to have completed a work of fiction that I can share.

It seems to be a universal principle of writing—or maybe it’s just my writing—that anything I write seems awkward and cringey in retrospect. Perhaps that’s an indicator of progress. Either way, it’s unavoidable, so I just keep writing and hope that people will be able to enjoy and relate to it. I’m learning to worry less about letting negative reactions prevent me from trying new things. The very best movies have bad reviews. Even the Wikipedia article for Andrea Bocelli says that “his voice and performances have routinely been the subject of negative reviews by critics”—and if the work of an immensely popular singer like him can be described as “a profoundly unmusical contribution”, then I have no chance at pleasing everyone. But if just a few readers find my work worth reading, then I’m happy I wrote it.

As I mention in my acknowledgments, this story has some history behind it. Originally, I wanted to write a time travel novel told in chronological order. (Don’t think about that too hard. The more sense you try to make of it, the less sense it makes.) That was back in 2018. There was a large ensemble cast of characters with interweaving stories, flashbacks to alternate timelines—the whole thing was rather unintelligible, especially as a first effort.

However, a few characters and scenes worked well, particularly Lucca, the central character of that outline. The name and hair color were inspired by Chrono Trigger, the Super Nintendo classic—a delightful piece of video game storytelling—but the similarity to that Lucca ends there. My original outline had planned a great deal of philosophical navel-gazing about free will, culture, life’s meaning, etc., and the anchor for that was a completely nihilistic, “anti-god” who had lost all sense of meaning because she was subject to neither death nor time; she became too powerful to face any kind of material resistance, and the world became a plaything to her. The pivotal final scene played out the same way as it does here. It was the strongest of the scenes I ended up writing, and I shared it with friends and family, but it didn’t come together without the rest of the unwritten story.

Meanwhile, the content related to the Book of Job was added much later in 2020, when I was reading the Old Testament seriously for the first time. Job quickly became my favorite book because of its fascinating tension—no two commentators seemed to agree on what it meant or how to interpret it, and the winding interior of the book stood almost completely at odds with the simplicity of the frame story. I was especially interested in God’s response to Job—opening with “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?”—which seemed like either a deflection of the question or a complete non-sequitur. I began to make sense of it when I turned the situation on its head. What if Job were in God’s place, or God were in Job’s place? God’s tour of the cosmos became intimately related to Job’s suffering, and this story’s coffee shop conversation was born.

Eventually, I decided to try submitting some of my writing to a college writing journal, and this is the story that was in the best shape at the time. I tore the ending and the coffee shop scenes from the early draft, wrote a single chapter of backstory for each character, glued it all together, and put it through a couple rounds of editing. As soon as it was finished, I decided that I’d rather retain the publication rights and distribute it to my friends and family and on my blog, so I had some art done and made some physical copies (I’ll be making more once I get a printer). The manuscript I submitted is still lying in a slush pile somewhere.

And that’s the story of How I Laid the Foundations! My hope is that the story in its current form is an engaging narrative that points to questions and answers about human significance, compassion, death, meaning in chaos, and letting go. I hope you enjoyed it.

Future Plans

My current writing project is a lovely research paper for my historical linguistics class with the working title, “Broderfolk eller brödrafolk: Are Danish and Swedish still mutually intelligible?” or the more sterile “Asymmetric mutual intelligibility between Danish and Swedish”. It sounds absolutely thrilling, I’m sure, but I’m enjoying learning more about Scandinavian linguistics in the process. If you happen to be curious about that particular niche, you know where to find me.

Otherwise, I’m writing some early scenes for another fiction story. The surface genre is YA dystopian romance, and the ideas I’m hoping to dig into are modern anti-natalism, coming of age, and a relationship between two young people without a common language. Stay tuned!

As always, thanks for reading, and have a wonderful holiday and Christmas season!

Yours, Eric.